Some days are good and some are bad

What is it with me today?

I can't seem to get myself together. One day, I am able to be cool and calm and other days, I am filled with drama. Just plan old drama. I don't know what's up with Fred he won't play with me at all. I don't care what I do. I lick him and I try to play with him and he just turns his back on me. Let me tell you. That's starting to really tick me off. It's not everyday that you can get your rear end sniffed by someone such as me. I am very talented you know!

Today, Fred is at the doggie daycare. I was left alone without my buddy. I am sad. Daddy came home first and scared the crap out of me. And I mean he really did scare the crap out of me. Then mommy came home and I knew she wouldn't allow me to get away with half the stuff I can with daddy. Anyway, mommy left me alone when she came home. I guess she knew that I wasn't myself today. She's into that no talk, no touch, no eye contact thing. It works because I follow her around the house wanting her to give me attention. She says when I show her that I am ready for affection than she will give it to me. I miss my Fred.

I hope when he comes home from daycare he will be happy to see me as much as I will be happy to see him. I hope one day, I will be able to go with Fred to this daycare place. Are there others dogs there? I wonder what they do there? I have never been to a daycare. Fred is very fortunate to be able to go to these fun places. One day soon, I too will go with Fred to this place called doggie daycare.

Nikki.

Great Weekend!

Hi All,

I made some progress today. I actually let my mommy give me a sponge bath. Don't get me wrong, she's sweet and all, but I am not going to let her put me in that tub. I see that look on Fred's face when she puts him in the tub to bathe him. Anyhow, she gave me my first sponge bath because it was mentioned that we both smelled like a dog. As if. I would have you know that I am a lady at all times. I may sniff Fred's butt and may at times even give it a small lick. But, I and I mean I am a lady at all times and do not smell like a dog. Possibly a little. I may need to rethink that last statement.

Regardless of the above, I smelled really good after I got my sponge bath. Fred on the other hand received a full-service bath and he was mad. I could tell because he wouldn't play with me.

For a reward, I got a little bone for being such a good girl. I could get use to this life. I honestly think that I like this little family.

Just as an after thought, I am taking small steps.

Sorry that I haven't written in a couple of days. I've been very busy, playing with Fred and getting plenty of attention. I think that my family has caught on to me. They told me that my probationary period was over and I needed to get with the routine. So I have. I get up early in the morning with Fred and have breakfast. I then go back outside and have some exercise time and then I am in the house because my parents are off to work. But, mommy and daddy come home on their lunch hour to take me and Fred outside for potty and exercise and affection time. I still haven't gotten close to them yet but I am learning. It's hard some days because I want them to give me affection like they do Fred but I am not ready for that yet.

I am really a messed up little girl who needs lots of time.

The good thing is that they haven't given up on me yet. So I must be doing something right.

Nikki.

Two steps forward and 12 steps back

Thursday

Humans experience fear differently than animals. Humans can overcome any obstacles but it's hard for animals to overcome such obstacles.

When I think that I can trust enough to overcome these obstacles, I get scared again and run away. I am at the point today where everything and everyone scares me. Everyone except Fred. Fred is my protector. He barks at me when I rocket out of my crate and run into him. He barks at me if I take to long when mommy calls us back into the house. But he is patient with me when we are in the yard together. He plays with me and chases me around. I like that. He is my big brother. Plus, he doesn't get upset with me when I climb into his crate and take a nap.

I like my mommy because she doesn't push me. Although, I desperately need a bath, she hasn't thrown me into the tub. But, I believe it's coming real soon. I love when she finally sits down at her desk and I crawl under it and lay down. She doesn't try to pet me. It's like she knows that I am there but she is giving me my space. My daddy does that too.

One day, I won't be afraid and I will be a happy and normal dog.

But for today, I will just be me.

Nikki

Sometimes, I feel like I am making progress and then I revert back to my fears. I want to get close to my humans but cannot bring myself to get close enough. I whine because I want them to pet me but I can't let them pet me right now. Today, I am running away as soon as they enter the room. Why is that? Will they send me back and I have to start over again? I hope they don't give up on me. I like Fred a lot and he is starting to like me too. He yells at me sometimes when I run out of my crate and bump into him. Boy is he loud. My mommy is always telling him quiet. Now, I see why.

I am taking one day at a time.

Nikki.

Sunday

It's an entire week in my new home. I have made a lot of progress. I like my foster brother a lot. I lick his face all the time. He likes that. I even watched him take a bath and he didn't try to get out of the tub once. My mommy is so gentle with him. She didn't even try to put me in the tub. I need a bath but she knows that I am not ready yet.

I still run away from them and am very scared of my mommy and daddy both. I know it's a trust issue. It will take me some time for me to trust humans. Some of them are really bad people. I don't understand why they have pets. I can't speak for myself but there are people out there helping animals like me.

Please keep me in your prayers.
Nikki.

Big Day!

Saturday

I had my mommy and daddy all to myself today. Fred went to the daycare today to play with the other dogs and give me a little alone time with my new family. I was showered with lots of attention today. I helped mommy do the laundry and dust the bedroom. I was really good while beds were made. I sat really close to mommy on the floor and didn't make one sound. I even let my daddy pet me a little. I have never had this much love and affection before. I was overwhelmed a little bit. I growled a little at mommy. I was afraid.

She never got mad at me. I think she understood. I was getting all the attention today and when Fred came home he got all the attention. I think I was jealous like Fred was the other day. Plus, I am a little confused. It was a lot to take in for one day. I believe we will take it a little slower tomorrow.

One day at a time right?

Good night.

Friday

Another rainy day for me and Fred. We didn't have a chance to go out and play today. That's ok because my mommy and daddy came home and gave us lots of love and affection. I actually got really close to my mommy. I sat under her desk and she scratched and rubbed my head. I do like affection. I even whine a little when Fred gets all the scratches and love. Then my mommy says come over here and you can get some scratches too. I am learning to like my new family. Even Fred. He is still being stubborn, I overheard my mommy say that he is jealous. I hope that he gets over being jealous because I am really a sweet girl and I would like to play with him.

I know one day I will be able to go out to meet other people. I am not there yet. I hope that my foster parents keep me around for a little while.

Thursday

It was a rainy day. I was sad. I couldn't go outside to play. I was alone all day. Fred was there but, I missed my mommy coming home on her lunch hour to get to know me better. That's ok because when she came home this evening she took me outside and I got a little closer to her and she gave me some love and affection. I think I like being touched. It's hard though because Fred is still protective of her and he only let's me get so close. I understand because we both have been abandoned.

Here's a secret that we won't tell Fred. I followed my mommy into the bathroom while my daddy had Fred occupied. I think she planned it that way to give us some alone time. I actually laid on the floor next to her and she gave me lots of affection. And guess what? Don't tell. I let her get really close to me without running away.

Shhhhh.

Wednesday & Thursday 2010


I am pleased to say that I let my mommy really give me love today. She comes home everyday at lunch to let me and Fred outside for some exercise. That's the best time of the day for me because I know that I can slide next to her and she will rub my back. Can I tell you that it felt soooo good. At first, I was nervous and I started jumping a little but then I backed up against the patio door and she didn't say anything to me but it's ok. After that, I was in heaven. So this is what a human touch feels like. I think a girl could get use to this. What do you think?

(the little brown one is me and Fred is the black and white and my mommy Tina)

My Diary

Hi, my name is Nikki. Well actually I really don’t know what my name is. See, I am a dog who has been seriously abused and abandoned by my original owner. My life has been nothing but hectic to say the least; my journey has been long and hard. Living in one place after another but I am happy to say that I was rescued by this wonderful woman who housed me and found me a foster family to help me. I have this one little problem. I am afraid of people. I know it’s hard for me to believe it myself. Just look at my picture, I should be living the sweet life instead I am hoping that I can find a family that will give me lots of love and be extra patient with me. I promise that you won't be disappointed.

Help my foster family find me a forever home.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Today, I am a little confused and frightened. I am in this strange home with these strange people and this dog who truly doesn’t like me. What happened? I was just starting to get use to hanging out with my rescue mom. Did I do something wrong? I am shaking like a leaf. Will they hurt me? That little dog keeps staring at me. Maybe if I try and sniff him he will like me. No such luck.

Monday, March 8, 2009

I made it through the night. It is awfully quiet here. It’s not what I am use to. I found out that my foster brother’s name is Fred. He was a rescue too. I guess these people aren’t too bad. I can tell you that this Fred dog lives a cushy life. He has something called an eco-friendly bed. I know because I went into his crate to see how it felt and he gave me the look. I can only wish to have a bed like Fred’s. I can tell you that Fred is spoiled. He gets lots of affection from his mommy & daddy. I found out the first night that my foster mommy was off limits. Fred gave me the growl. Don’t worry, I gave Fred the snap and that ended that on day one.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Today, I am putting two and two together. My rescue mommy isn’t coming back for me. I guess these people will take care of me now. At least today, Fred is looking at me and at times trying to mount me. I guess that is his way of saying hi and welcome to our family. But my mommy tells him no. I like going outside. They have a nice yard and my mommy stays outside with me. I think I like her. She talks to me all the time. I watch how she interacts with Fred and Fred loves her. I can tell. I started whining today because I wanted her to pet me too.

I haven’t come real close yet but close enough. Today, I actually let her pet me without shaking. I really think it was those yummy treats she shared with me and Fred. They were yum-oh. This could be the one. I am still trying to figure out my daddy though. He scares me. I think because he is a big guy. I am still trying to figure out if I like my new family. I know that I like the treats.

Before I go to sleep, I just wanted to say that I got a new toy all my own.

Good night and I miss you mommy Cherie.